THE INNOCENT SCHOOL-DAYS :)

I remember you from long ago
I thought you hung the moon.
I have learned so much
About life & love
Since those innocent days
In the schoolyard.
Yes, I remember you.
I look back upon those days
Such innocence!
A rope not yet frayed.
We held the world in our hands
And life was good
Sure, I remember you
You were my first crush

A SWEET LITTLE GOODBYE..... :)

About A LONG-GONE PAST...... and i wish you well..!! coz' watever happens, happens for the best... :)

I loved you-
even now I may confess
Some embers of my love their fire retain
But do not let it cause you more distress-
I do not want to sadden you again.

Hopeless and tongue-tied, yet, I loved you dearly
With pangs the jealous the timid know
So tenderly I loved you, so sincerely,
I pray God grant another love you so.

AND LIFE JUST GOES ON...

this poem is about a person from my past...

and as i say--- life just moves on. i don't blame her actually. it was her who lost the best she ever had because of her cowardice and immaturity.
god bless ya buddy...i always wished you well and i'll still always wish you well.
and for me--now, it even doesn't hurt...becoz THE SHOW MUST GO ON...!! :) :)

I couldn’t ignore the pain any longer,

Life was just too much,
I never saw my life in future times,
Or happiness and love and such.

I’d been to the edge with the intent to jump,
And had become happy with thoughts of no pain.
Feeling my uselessness as an inherited curse,
I had nothing left to gain.

The sun failed to shine,
In my world overcast.
Birds no longer sang,
And the first had become the last.

All things good and whole,
Had turned and went their way.
They were never to return to me,
So I felt I should just go away.

Consumption by hate, to save was too late,
Where should I turn now?
Why do I get kicked when I’m down?
When could I be happy? Or even better, how?

Fallen and fetal,
I will return to the dirt.
Bittersweet battle within,
No longer would I hurt.

Smiles soon faded,
And hearts followed to break.
As I cried out for help,
I cried in heaven’s sake.

Routinely I cried,
For a hand to reach to me.
I looked blankly at emptiness’ stare,
And closed my eyes reluctantly.

But I felt one more fight, a chance in me,
To save myself from isolation.
Piercing my lips were words of insignificance,
And the end to my frustration.

As time's hands moved on and on,
Together, as one, we grew.
Now solitary routine you seek,
You seek you never knew,

Tired of times we spend together,
Tired of me you grow.
Tired of being tired in time,
No feelings will you show.

But in time as your thoughts are even,
Will I be thought of only as your pawn..
And will you be happy or sad
When I’m finally gone?

GOODBYE....

As I sit on this memorable place
It surely reminds me of your face.
On this place you said goodbye
On this place I said I’ll die.

You stood right and end up everything
Without letting me say anything.
But then it’s just aright
At least we didn’t end up fight.

I gave up and set you free
It is for you, not me.
I haven’t seen your real smile
With me, for a long while.
It’s not what I wished for
To make you happy is I aim for.

So I let go and give up
And still, I’m here looking up.
Reminiscing those moments with you
But still I have nothing to do.
Quickly, it was lost in a moment.
Coz I know we’re not meant.
Those times didn’t last
Coz we took love, so fast.

So much to take this pain
Without any love to gain.
This terrible heartache
Make my smiles fake.
So much lies for this heart
So it was broken apart.

Words will no longer be right
Though I stood up and fight.

For the times we spent together
And for the times I wished forever.
For the memories left inside
And for the feelings I used to hide.
For the thoughts that’s still here
And for the words you said clear.
For the promises we used to swear
And for the love we spend and share.

In this place I’ll get rid and forget
Without thinking, I might regret.
With a final kiss I’ll say goodbye
I’ll be leaving this place without a cry.

Now, I’ll let these memories fly
As high as heavens, and then goodbye

AND IT HURT SO MUCH...

I know it must have been some misunderstanding.... some sombre truth that can't be bared...BUT IT HURT SO MUCH....

I couldn’t ignore the pain any longer
Life was just too much
I never saw my life in future times
Or happiness and love and such

I’d been to the edge with the intent to jump
And had become happy with thoughts of no pain
Feeling my uselessness as an inherited curse
I had nothing left to gain

The sun failed to shine
In my world overcast
Birds no longer sang
And the first had become the last

All things good and whole
Had turned and went their way
They were never to return to me
So I felt I should just go away

Consumption by hate, to save was too late
Where should I turn now?
Why do I get kicked when I’m down?
When could I be happy? Or even better, how?

Fallen and fetal
I will return to the dirt
Bittersweet battle within
No longer would I hurt

Smiles soon faded
And hearts followed to break
As I cried out for help
I cried in heaven’s sake

Routinely I cried
For a hand to reach to me
I looked blankly at emptiness’ stare
And closed my eyes reluctantly

But I felt one more fight, a chance in me
To save myself from isolation
Piercing my lips were words of insignificance
And the end to my frustration

As time's hands moved on and on
Together, as one, we grew
Now solitary routine you seek
You seek you never knew

Tired of times we spend together
Tired of me you grow
Tired of being tired in time
No feelings will you show

But in time as your thoughts are even
Will I be thought of only as your pawn
And will you be happy or sad
When I’m finally gone?

CHOICE, AND NOT CHANCE, DETERMINES HUMAN DESTINY...!!!

This is a poem about things that i have experienced in my past, some experiences of mine, and is also based on some of the observations that i have made by carefully analysing things that have happened to people around me and some of the mistakes that i have seen being done even by my own very close people and friends. but my friends, strangers and to everyone i would say, that relationships are a responsibilty and a great commitment and you just can't shirk away from it by saying that your feelings have waned away or by blaming it on your sorroundings or circumstances...!!! VALUE YOUR RELATIONSHIPS...!!!
...........but by no means this poem means that we should get stuck to the past. am a firm believer that we should move on with life. but, we should never forget our past as it makes us learn our lessons for our future life...but also we shouldn't keep stuck to it as it can cause stagnancy of thought and life.

What goes around comes around,

I've heard it said again and again..!!
Yet even expecting that,
Can't take away this dreadful pain away..!!

It isn't really that painful,
Actually it doesn't hurt me a bit now,
I'm just stuck wondering why....
Why I had to take the hit..??
How is it that you can lie,
Over and over to me..??

Then you decided to come right out,
Said you had to set yourself free,
Then again after few days...
you told me you love me...!!!

Hello? ! ? Can't you hear your own voice? ! ?
You never stopped and thought,
About your own messed up choice...
I never said for you to find someone else,
Hell, I never said for you to mess around,
I never said for you to leave either...
But you were no where to be found...!!!

Then after few days, you had the audacity to say,
that I am the one you want..!!
You don't want anyone other than me,
Well if that is true as you say,
Then with me you would right now be..??

You told me afterwards,
not to be mad at you and your deeds..!!!
How can I not be mad?
Are you totally dense?
Don't be mad when you're leaving me in the dirt?
Don't be mad while you go on and jump the fence.??

Damn this is so totally unreal,
But you must need some serious professional care,
Because I don't know what your problem is..!!
But something ain't right up there..??

You threw the word love around like trash,
Then ask me to trust you..??
Trust? Do you even know what trust means?
You must take me for a total fool
Trust? Love? Faithfulness?
These are all words of a love that is sworn,
But you took these words and made them nothing,
Made them words of nothing but scorn...!!!

I hope you would think of me every night from now,
And I hope you realize what you threw away..!!

MY STRUGGLES GIVE ME STRENGTH..!!!

My Yesterday was so miserable
With gloomy memories, and places,
Like a sad story with a sad title,
Like a mirror broken into pieces...!!!

My Yesterday tries to put me to the test ,
A letter in the drawer, a book on the desk..!!
They’re still like a bullet piercing my chest...
Yet, today my Yesterday seems grotesque...!!!

Yesterday I touched the bottom of despair
Mad and dark I’ll let it repeat never..!!
My Yesterday disappeared somewhere
Today’s morning was truer and wiser...!!!

Now I’m strong... It’s unbelievable,
I feel regular beating of my heart..!!
It’s summer! No tear and no trouble,
Goodbye Yesterday! The sun is so bright...!!!!