Monday, February 23, 2009

AND IT HURT SO MUCH...

I know it must have been some misunderstanding.... some sombre truth that can't be bared...BUT IT HURT SO MUCH....

I couldn’t ignore the pain any longer
Life was just too much
I never saw my life in future times
Or happiness and love and such

I’d been to the edge with the intent to jump
And had become happy with thoughts of no pain
Feeling my uselessness as an inherited curse
I had nothing left to gain

The sun failed to shine
In my world overcast
Birds no longer sang
And the first had become the last

All things good and whole
Had turned and went their way
They were never to return to me
So I felt I should just go away

Consumption by hate, to save was too late
Where should I turn now?
Why do I get kicked when I’m down?
When could I be happy? Or even better, how?

Fallen and fetal
I will return to the dirt
Bittersweet battle within
No longer would I hurt

Smiles soon faded
And hearts followed to break
As I cried out for help
I cried in heaven’s sake

Routinely I cried
For a hand to reach to me
I looked blankly at emptiness’ stare
And closed my eyes reluctantly

But I felt one more fight, a chance in me
To save myself from isolation
Piercing my lips were words of insignificance
And the end to my frustration

As time's hands moved on and on
Together, as one, we grew
Now solitary routine you seek
You seek you never knew

Tired of times we spend together
Tired of me you grow
Tired of being tired in time
No feelings will you show

But in time as your thoughts are even
Will I be thought of only as your pawn
And will you be happy or sad
When I’m finally gone?

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

sometimes it really is better to let go. because only a heart that nows true love can sacrifice. but standing by ur love always really means a lot and trust and strength to always be ur love's side with complete dedication is true love. this 1 is a sweet post by u. u seem to be a great guy with a very pure soul.

Unknown said...

it does hurt bro. but as they say "its better to be alone than love a loser". so i would just say that it's the girls loss that she ditched and lost a person who loved her so much.

mayank puri said...

thanx for ur comments and support.. tahnx a ton to u both..!! thats all i can say :)

ritika singh said...

i'll just say. god bless u. u are a great soul. a very nice and honest guy who deserves the best things in life

mayank puri said...

thanx buddy :)