GOODBYE....

As I sit on this memorable place
It surely reminds me of your face.
On this place you said goodbye
On this place I said I’ll die.

You stood right and end up everything
Without letting me say anything.
But then it’s just aright
At least we didn’t end up fight.

I gave up and set you free
It is for you, not me.
I haven’t seen your real smile
With me, for a long while.
It’s not what I wished for
To make you happy is I aim for.

So I let go and give up
And still, I’m here looking up.
Reminiscing those moments with you
But still I have nothing to do.
Quickly, it was lost in a moment.
Coz I know we’re not meant.
Those times didn’t last
Coz we took love, so fast.

So much to take this pain
Without any love to gain.
This terrible heartache
Make my smiles fake.
So much lies for this heart
So it was broken apart.

Words will no longer be right
Though I stood up and fight.

For the times we spent together
And for the times I wished forever.
For the memories left inside
And for the feelings I used to hide.
For the thoughts that’s still here
And for the words you said clear.
For the promises we used to swear
And for the love we spend and share.

In this place I’ll get rid and forget
Without thinking, I might regret.
With a final kiss I’ll say goodbye
I’ll be leaving this place without a cry.

Now, I’ll let these memories fly
As high as heavens, and then goodbye

AND IT HURT SO MUCH...

I know it must have been some misunderstanding.... some sombre truth that can't be bared...BUT IT HURT SO MUCH....

I couldn’t ignore the pain any longer
Life was just too much
I never saw my life in future times
Or happiness and love and such

I’d been to the edge with the intent to jump
And had become happy with thoughts of no pain
Feeling my uselessness as an inherited curse
I had nothing left to gain

The sun failed to shine
In my world overcast
Birds no longer sang
And the first had become the last

All things good and whole
Had turned and went their way
They were never to return to me
So I felt I should just go away

Consumption by hate, to save was too late
Where should I turn now?
Why do I get kicked when I’m down?
When could I be happy? Or even better, how?

Fallen and fetal
I will return to the dirt
Bittersweet battle within
No longer would I hurt

Smiles soon faded
And hearts followed to break
As I cried out for help
I cried in heaven’s sake

Routinely I cried
For a hand to reach to me
I looked blankly at emptiness’ stare
And closed my eyes reluctantly

But I felt one more fight, a chance in me
To save myself from isolation
Piercing my lips were words of insignificance
And the end to my frustration

As time's hands moved on and on
Together, as one, we grew
Now solitary routine you seek
You seek you never knew

Tired of times we spend together
Tired of me you grow
Tired of being tired in time
No feelings will you show

But in time as your thoughts are even
Will I be thought of only as your pawn
And will you be happy or sad
When I’m finally gone?