YOU ARE MY INSPIRATION...!!

i wrote this poem for a very special person in my life on her birthday..!! and i promised that i would write one for her.....so here it is---as your gift..!! it's a bit late that i am putting it here on blog....but HERE I AM...!!

You're the strength that makes me fight through my problems,
the courage that helps me face my worst and darkest fears,
the cunning that helps me overcome my many obstacles,
the inspiration that pushes me to reach my potential,
the passion that keeps my nights...interesting,
the love that enriches my life to the fullest,
and i will forever be the person that loves you unconditionally..!!

CHOICE, AND NOT CHANCE, DETERMINES HUMAN DESTINY...!!!

This is a poem about things that i have experienced in my past, some experiences of mine, and is also based on some of the observations that i have made by carefully analysing things that have happened to people around me and some of the mistakes that i have seen being done even by my own very close people and friends. but my friends, strangers and to everyone i would say, that relationships are a responsibilty and a great commitment and you just can't shirk away from it by saying that your feelings have waned away or by blaming it on your sorroundings or circumstances...!!! VALUE YOUR RELATIONSHIPS...!!!
...........but by no means this poem means that we should get stuck to the past. am a firm believer that we should move on with life. but, we should never forget our past as it makes us learn our lessons for our future life...but also we shouldn't keep stuck to it as it can cause stagnancy of thought and life.

What goes around comes around,

I've heard it said again and again..!!
Yet even expecting that,
Can't take away this dreadful pain away..!!

It isn't really that painful,
Actually it doesn't hurt me a bit now,
I'm just stuck wondering why....
Why I had to take the hit..??
How is it that you can lie,
Over and over to me..??

Then you decided to come right out,
Said you had to set yourself free,
Then again after few days...
you told me you love me...!!!

Hello? ! ? Can't you hear your own voice? ! ?
You never stopped and thought,
About your own messed up choice...
I never said for you to find someone else,
Hell, I never said for you to mess around,
I never said for you to leave either...
But you were no where to be found...!!!

Then after few days, you had the audacity to say,
that I am the one you want..!!
You don't want anyone other than me,
Well if that is true as you say,
Then with me you would right now be..??

You told me afterwards,
not to be mad at you and your deeds..!!!
How can I not be mad?
Are you totally dense?
Don't be mad when you're leaving me in the dirt?
Don't be mad while you go on and jump the fence.??

Damn this is so totally unreal,
But you must need some serious professional care,
Because I don't know what your problem is..!!
But something ain't right up there..??

You threw the word love around like trash,
Then ask me to trust you..??
Trust? Do you even know what trust means?
You must take me for a total fool
Trust? Love? Faithfulness?
These are all words of a love that is sworn,
But you took these words and made them nothing,
Made them words of nothing but scorn...!!!

I hope you would think of me every night from now,
And I hope you realize what you threw away..!!

U'll NEVER DISCOVER THE REAL ME..!!

I am boy who's grown tired from lies ,
a man who's had enough of having responsibility....
dumped over his head,
responsibility of other people's and my own wrong doings,
responsibility of an ever-smiling boy,
and expectations of being able to take it all..!!!

To other people
I might just seem like a cheerful boy,
a playful happy-go-lucky guy,
with no worries and scantly affected by fakeness and lies,
sorrounding us all in this big bad world..!!

But its most of the times ...
only a matter of a good disguise ..!!!
A mask that I use to protect myself ,
to hide my fears ,
to hide my pains and tears,
I've used it so much ,
that I actually believe the lie ...
the lie that I've made ,
a lie that I've created as a shield ..!!!

I've used this mask so much,
that now I think ,
it became my own skin ...!!
if you come to think of it,
I'm just a normal person,
like everyone else ,
struggling with life..!!

and the only way to survive ,
is to live a lie ,..!!!
just for a little while,
until people find my true identity,
my true persona, my true self...
and THE REAL ME ..!!!